im aishwarya, 15, september born, about 5’4 in height lol. my favourite colour is blue. i adore the janoskians, 1D, justin bieber, tom daley, zac efron (the list is endless ok). unhealthy obsession for jamie ryan dee. i have a passion for dance. i do geography, history, religious education and french at gcse level. um i love to travel and one day i want to actually do a world tour of the countries i havent yet visited. this sounds sad but the internet is like my life, ive met so many people and they’ve changed my life in such a good way, idk what would happen to me without it.

i’m insecure as fuck, i don’t want to get started on this bc people think its for sympathy but i really do hate myself. i’m a self harmer and if you’re reading this and have ever considered it, please don’t ever do it, once you start you cant stop, it takes over your life, and although my scars define who i am, if i could i would turn back time and never start self harm. also although im quite open about my life i do have trust issues. 

basically im self and internet diagnosed bipolar. i have moments where im quite proud of my figure and my looks (IM NOT VAIN) but that soon goes and i hit rock bottom again. before you complain about me not going to a doctor, i cant. my parents dont know about all this, so i just cant, no matter how much i want to.

i’m trying to recover because i know that without struggle there is no gain, it’s really hard but i have a lot of support which im thankful for and i hope one day i will realize that living in depression is not the way to live my life and i have to be proud of who i am. 

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